onenonlydave

It's been so long since I've updated this journal.  I lost my password to it and never got the idea to reset it and make a new one.  I missed this ol' thing.  I read through the entire blog again.  Man, were those some good times, even if they were bad.  Ah, high school.  How I (kinda, sorta) miss thee.  But oh well.  It's really late.  So I'm going to end this now.  Later dayz my good buddies!

-Brent

P.S. If anyone actually read this, that is amazing.  I don't think anyone uses this site anymore because of Myspace.  I like the private/secludedness (if that's a word) of this website compared to the house that Tom built.

Hey all. How are you guys? I'm ok. I just got done talkin with the gf, Sam. Yeah, she gave me quite a scare. She asked me what I would think if she tried smoking pot. I was amazed. I said that I would probably freak out. She asked why. I said that it's just something very wrong in my book. But she said that I think drinking is OK, why not pot? I just don't know. I think it's completely useless and stupid. She thought it was weird how I love to watch and quote these movies with stoner characters like Jay & Silent Bob. I said it's because I think they are funny. I'm not laughin at the fact that they are smoking pot, and plus, most of the time you see them they aren't smoking pot at all. And they aren't even the main characters in most of those movies. It doesn't mean I want to try pot. She just thinks it's something that she has to try. She's says that I'm too scared to try some things. It's not that I'm scared. It's just that I know better than that. I mean, I admit, I used to want to try smoking and pot and all that stuff. But once I started dating her, I matured. I found out that that stuff is no good for the both of us. I gave up wanting to try it. I'm now not just looking out for myself but for both of us. It just scares the hell out of me to think of her doing such a thing. I already worry sometimes when I'm not there with her when she goes places. I always think something might happen and I won't be there to stop it. I dunno, it's my own problem. She says she'd only take one drag. But that's all it takes. Just one drag and you could be hooked, no matter how strong-willed you are. I love her too much to risk it. I don't want to lose her. Oh well, she told me to forget it, that she probably won't do it. But I want her to never do it, not just probably. But, I don't want to sound like I'm trying to change her. I'm just trying to help. There's just some things in life that aren't worth trying. And pot is one of them. Welp, it's getting late, kiddies. I'm not even suppose to be here, either. (Ok, so I shamelessly said that there, but half of you don't know what that means.) Later days!
-B-Rent

Hey to all the people who read this little thing. It's been a while hasn't it. Yup. Many things have changed in my life. Um, I have a new girlfriend. Or, shall I say, soulmate. Her name is Samantha and she is a blessing from above. I love her so. . .umm. . .well I can't think of a word worthy enough to describe it. Anyways, I'm trying to get back into the writing groove. I used to be on this thing all the time in the past, but I kinda grew out of it. But I guess some old habits can't die. Plus, some certain people like it when I write, er, type on here. I like it, too. I seem to be able to clear my head in a creative way. It's kinda like when I goof around on my guitar and end up making a song. By the way, I've started to get a bit more serious with music. Ok, so I've said that before. But I mean it this time, I think. No, I know. I've been given this talent and I'm not going to waste it. I'm on this corrupt planet for a reason, and I'm going to take on the task. I'll carry the banner through it all. Hmm, well, my minds been cluttered lately. I guess if you look at previous entries, it's not the first time. But I look at those and smile. I never knew I was actually like that only a year ago. I've changed so much, but for the better. I was so young then. (In experience of life, I mean.) It's all gone by so fast that it's hard to keep track. But it's only getting better. I look at those old posts and it motivates me. Never again will I drag myself down like that over anything. Cause from what I've gone through, there's always a second chance at it. Wow, just writing this is so refreshing. You see, my gf and I just got done having a long talk about our lives and the past. It's something that we've wanted to do for a while, but neither of us was fully up to it. Well, mostly me, but that's cause I'm not good at talking about certain things. But I just have to suck it up and take it. In the end, it helped out a ton. Welp, I think I should be getting to bed. I got this thing called school tommorrow. Yeah, I know, it sucks and blows, which doesn't really make sense. It's a B day so atleast it'll be somewhat enjoyable. I just wish I didn't have play practice. By the way, I'm the Cowardly Lion in The Wiz. If I didn't have practice then I'd be able to hang out with Sam. She's not able to have me over anymore when she's working (she babysits a little girl). It's a complicated ordeal. Hmmm, ordeal. . .don't think I've ever used that before. . . Anyways, I really really have to go now, really. So until the next time we meet, remember if something is bringing you down, don't fret, life's always better the second time around. I know all about that. It's been too long, my friend. Later days!
-Brent

How's it going, dudes? Most excellently here! Yeah, well, I've decided to fuck the past and move on. No use in whining about shit all the time. So. . .hmmm, I'm just gonna let life flow, er whatever. Yup, shit happens. So, I think I'm going to go do something. Check ya later! (Hmm, I need to think of a different sign off...)
-Brent

Hey! Yeah, sorry for the lack of updates, kiddies. Welp, it's late and I'm tired so this one's gonna be short, too. OK, so here's some BS. I'm the greatest guitar player in the whole world! LoL! Yeah, I dunno what else to write. Hmmm...any ideas? No? Thought so...OH! Here's some interesting news. Without Eloquence (the band I'm in) is going to (hopefully) record their first EP in a couple weeks. It'll mainly be cover songs because of the lack of originals. But the fan favorite "Life Sucks" will probably be on it. So, yeah, I'm going to go now. Here, I'll leave you with this:

You Belong in 1970

1970 If you scored... 1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in! 1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too. 1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! 1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day. 1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

Check ya later, man!
-Brent

Green Day was amazing!!!!!!!!! My Chemical Romance was cool...But Green Day kicks major ASS!!!! Yeah, so, full update sometime, but not now. Check ya later!
-Brent

Well, how's it going, dudes and dudettes?! Pretty good here I guess, even though it doesn't seem like it with the other kinda posts I've had. Anyways, this weekend was most excellent! We (by that I mean the band I'm in "Without Eloquence") performed in the Battle of the Bands on Friday. We didn't win, but oh well. My amp was mixed up so people couldn't hear it too well til the last song when I fixed it. Atleast people were able to here my song (Life Sucks) which I got a lot of positive feedback on. Anyways, afterwards Gohde and I went back to his place. We wanted to do something fun so we called up Sarah and Emily and went to see "A Lot Like Love." It was actually a pretty good movie. Not too funny, though. But it had a stellar soundtrack so Gohde picked it up at Wal-Mart. Then on Saturday I didn't do a whole lot. I did get "The Best of Goldfinger" on CD. Man, it is amazing! I love Goldfinger! Anyways, on Sunday, once again, I did nothing. Isn't my life really boring? Ah well. Today was fun. After school, Mitch (my friend Michelle whom Gohde and I call Mitch), Gohde, and I talked at Gohde's place. We made plans to do something next week like watch a movie and just hang out. So that'll be some fun. OOOO! Agape Fest is this Friday and Saturday! Man, I hope I can go! And Green Day is next week! OK, so my life isn't THAT boring after all. But I wish it was better, but oh well, that's a different story. So, I'm going to depart from this. Check ya later!
-Brent

Man, I love this song! This is totally how I feel right now about things.

So here I go and there you went...again
Just another stupid thing that I done wrong.
Locked up in my head, knocked down, beaten, left for dead
With all those brilliant things I should have said.
I gotta get away, and find something to do
’cause everything I hear, everything I see, reminds me of you.

Still counting the days I’ve been without you 1, 2, 3, 4...
Still counting the days that you’ve been gone.
Day one, was no fun.
Day two, I hated you.
By day three I wish you’d come right back to me.
Day four, five and six, well I guess you just don’t give a shit.
Day seven, this is hell. this is hell.
I gotta get away, and find something to do.
But everything I hear, everything I see, reminds me of you.

Still counting the days I’ve been without you 1, 2, 3, 4...
Still counting the days that you’ve been gone.
Still counting the days since you left me. 1,2,3,4...
Still counting the days since you’ve been gone.

A thousand things I wanna say to you, but it’s too late now.
A thousand things I wanna say...
A thousand things I wanna say to you, but it’s too late now.
A thousand things I wanna say...

Still counting the days I’ve been without you.
Still counting the days that you’ve been gone.
Still counting the days I’ve been without you 1, 2, 3, 4...
Still counting the days that you’ve been gone.
Still counting the days since you left me 1, 2, 3, 4...
Still counting the days that you’ve been gone.
Gone...
Gone...
Gone...
Gone...

Oh man, I miss her so much!
-Brent

Carpe Diem - seize the day
Right now that means a lot to me, yet I never do it. I am incredibly stupid. I always have these chances but I never take them. What is wrong with me? God, why don't I ever tell her when I have the chance? I always choke or never do a thing. I'm such an idiot! No one knows how I feel about her. No one at all. Not even myself really. I have no car right now. My grades are shit. And I don't even do a thing about it. Well, you know what? That's all going to change. I'm going to turn my life around. And it's all because I want to be with her. I mean, yes I should have good grades and a car anyway. But now I have my true motivation. Nothing can stop me now. Not even myself. I want to see her again and again. I can't take this anymore! No matter what happens, I will always be there. No matter what! I'm doing this all for just the thought of being able to be with her again. To just hold her. That's all I ask for. And that's all I have to say right now. Yeah...bye.
-...Brent

The whole world's against me, I swear. The sad thing is it's all my fault! Why am I afraid?! DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Name: Brent Lucas Weishaupt

Nickname: Karp, Dave, B-Rent

Birth date: September 14, 1988

Zodiac sign: Virgo

Siblings: 1 older brother, 1 older sister

Pets: 1 dog, 1 cat

Your heritage: german, scottish, irish

Your hair: medium shaggy brown

Your eyes: blue/green

The shoes you wore today: etnies

Current location: home

Clothes: blood drive shirt, khaki shorts

Mood: i have no clue

Taste: chocolate milkshake

Hair: normal

Annoyance: my neck is killing me

Smell: air

Thing you ought to be doing: probably homework or something

Desktop picture: some island

Worry: life

Crush: a girl

Favorite celebrity: Johnny Ramone, Jason Lee

LAST...

Movie you rented: ummm, Battle of Shaker Heights (great movie)

Movie you bought: Dazed & Confused (well, i got it for easter)

Movie you saw: Dogma or Dazed & Confused

Song you listened: Little Miss Can't Be Wrong - Spin Doctors

Song that was stuck in your head: Mable - Goldfinger

Song you've downloaded: Flagpole Sitta - Harvey Danger

CD you bought: umm, Ramones Mania ( it's a vinyl)

CD you listened to: Ramones Live NYC 1978

TV show you've watched: Family Guy

LAST TIME YOU...

Had a nightmare: i dunno, last week maybe

Ate at McDonald's: like last week

Dyed your hair: 2 years ago

Brushed your hair: this morning

Washed your hair: this morning

Cried: like 2 or 3 weeks ago

Called someone: today

Smiled: today

Laughed: today

Talked to an ex: today


LAST PERSON...

You touched: Annabelle

You talked to: Alanna

You hugged: Annabelle

You yelled at: i dunno

You had a crush on: sarah

You kissed: sarah

Who broke your heart: sarah

Person that called you : sarah

IS...

Your most overused phrase: either "Dude" or "Man"

Your thoughts first waking up: damn, it's the morning

DO YOU...

Have a boyfriend or girlfriend: nope sadly

Have a secret crush: yes

Remember your first love: yes

Think about suicide: no way

Believe in online dating: i dunno

Want more piercings: no way

Want more tattoos: possibly

Drink: sometimes

Do drugs: no way

Smoke: no way

Like cleaning: no

Like roller coasters: YES

Write in cursive or print: print

Carry a donor card: my license

Cuss: sadly yes

Take a shower everyday: yes

Want to get married: yes

Type with your fingers on the right keys: nope

Get motion sickness: sometimes

Think you're attractive: sure

Care about looks: not really

Think you're a health freak: nope

Get along with your parents: sometimes

Play an instrument: guitar

Sleep with stuffed animals: nope

Have a dream that keeps coming back: not lately

Read the newspaper: yes

Pray: i try

Go to church: not often

Have any secrets: don't think so

Talk to strangers who instant message you: yea

Wear hats: all the time

Hate yourself: most of the time

Have an obsession: worrying

Collect anything: no

Have a best friend: many

Like your handwriting: yes

Have any bad habits: some

DO YOU BELIEVE...

*In witches: no

*In Satan: yes

*Ghosts: sure

*There is life on other planets: possibly


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...


Long distance relationships: if it floats ur boat

Suicide: it's wrong

Doing drugs: drugs are bad, mmkay?

Premarital sex: it isn't right, i guess

Driving drunk: that's most heinous


FAVORITE...

Soap operas: none

Things to talk about: everthing in life

Clothes: my ramones shirt, blue flannel shirt, prairie farmer hat, nike shoes, jeans

Holiday: Christmas


NUMBER OF...

Times I have had my heart broken: 1

Hearts I have broken: maybe 2 or 3

Girls I have kissed: 1

Boys I have kissed: none, thank God

Continents I have lived in: 1

People I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: 4



THE PAST 30 DAYS, DID/HAVE YOU...

Drink alcohol: nope

Smoke: nope

Do a drug: nope

Made out: no

Go on a date: no

Go to the mall: no

Been on stage: yes

Been dumped: no

Gone skating: no

Made homemade cookies: no

Gone skinny dipping: no

Dyed your hair: no

Stolen anything: no


HAVE YOU EVER...

Cried over a girl/boy: yes, a girl

Lied to someone: many

Been in a fist fight: yes

Been arrested: no

Played a game that required removal of clothing: no

Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no

Been caught "doing something": nope

Been called a tease: hmmm

Gotten beaten up: yes

Lost someone close to you: yes


FUTURE...


Age you hope to be married: 22

Numbers and names of children: 3, Brodie, Johnathon, Alyssa (umm, or whatever my wife wants is good for me)

Man, I'm stupid, and I don't know why.

Hey there! The play was most excellent last night and tonight! The after party was fun, too. Yeah, so I don't know what else to write here because I'm thinking about other things, so...yeah. Check ya later. . .
-Brent

YES!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BUUUUUUUUUUUUUDY! Eh heh heh heh!

Hey everyone! How's it going? I'm doing OK. Or, maybe not. I dunno. It's just that many things have been affecting my life lately. Ok, make that 2 certain people have been. And they're not really affecting my life, more like my mind. You see, there are these two girls. Now one of them I've known for a while. The other I have really known for only like 3 weeks. See, the first one I thought I was over with so I moved on. But then something happened and all of a sudden I'm questioning that decision. Because I really started to get into the second girl. And now here I am just fighting with my self. I mean, I have no clue what to do. I mean, the first girl I thought was the perfect girl. I mean no one could ever replace her. I thought we would be together for a long time. But then things kinda, well, fell out of place. So it took me like 5 months to get over it all. Then this new girl came along. Then something just hit me and I'm now stuck in between the 2. I know I'm probably just repeating myself right now but oh well. I've just been wondering lately if I should tell the first girl how I felt during those 5 months. Because she is a girl that only comes once in a lifetime. And I didn't want to lose her. And this new girl I really dig. But I dunno. I think I'm going to stop this for now. If any of you who ever read this wanna help, just send a comment my way. Check ya later!
-a very confused, gloomy, and mixed up Brent

(lost for words) . . . . .man. . . .

This seemed like fun so here. I got this from Emily's journal:

on your current playlist, hit shuffle & pick the first twenty songs on the list [no matter how cheesy or embarrassing], & write down your favourite line(s) of the song. try to avoid putting the song title in the line. then, have your friends comment & see if they know the songs.

1) Hey! Ho! Let's go! Shoot 'em in the back now
What they want, I don't know.
They're all revved up and ready to go!

2) Fiona says she's out shopping.
But she's under me and I'm not stopping.

3) There's movement in the distance
Gunshots are all I hear
This petty resistance is all I see
I want to walk away
Remember better days
We watch the death of something beautiful

4) We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends

5) I'm very lucky to have my crew
They stood by me when she flew
I've been knocked out, beat down, black and blue
She's not the one coming back for you
She's not the one coming back for you

6) Ooh my little pretty one, pretty one.
When you gonna give me some time, Sharona?
Ooh you make my motor run, my motor run.
Gun it comin' off the line Sharona

7) You were a toy, But, you could be the boy I adore.
If you just let me know.
I build you up too, I'm attracted to you, more and more.
What more can I say?
Baby, baby, I try to find, A little time,
Where I don't make you mine.
All alone, Waitin' by the phone for you.

8) Aowowowowowowowowowowowo!
A-hunga-hunga-hunga-hunga

9) No matter what they say
What they do to me
They can't touch me
They can't control me
One thing that they'll never touch
My holy memory
No, not my memory

10) I miss my baby and I feel so sad
I guess my race is run
Well she's the best girl that I ever had

11) I know let alone to rust alone
You're making me
I had to run the damage is done
I give it up
There nothing left take the rest
You're draining me

12) Marry him, marry me
I'm the one that loved you baby can't you see?
Ain't got no future or family tree
But I know what a prince and lover ought to be
.I know what a prince and lover ought be

13) Today I woke up alone wishing you were here with me,
I wanted us to be something that we'd probably never be.
Today you called me up and said you'd see me at our show,
But now I'm stuck debating if I even wanna go.

14) Can we forget about the things I said when I was drunk?
I didn't mean to call you that;
I can't remember what was said or what you threw at me

15) Their anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems, they never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them every day
We get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants and it's what she wants
Then why is there so much pain?

16) So spin your cap around to the back
You think you rhyme but you can't rap
Loosen that strap a little more 'till your axe hits the floor
Flip off your fans, make 'em cheer
Try to look sincere
Anger today's fashions so sing another song about
Bashing someone's head in

17) hey you know they're all the same
you know you're doing better on your own so don't buy in
live right now, just be yourself
it doesn't matter if that's good enough for someone else

18) The hip, hip a hop, and you don't stop, a rock it
To the bang bang boogie, say, up jump the boogie,
To the rhythm of the boogie, the beat.
Now, what you hear is not a test - I'm rappin' to the beat,
And me, the groove, and my friends are gonna try to move your feet.

19) That night over at johnny's place
Well this chick got up and she slapped johnny's face
Man we just fell about the place
If that chick don't want to know, forget her

20) She taught me how to trust
And to believe in us
And then she taught me how to cuss....That bitch!
It's over

Now start guessin, dudes! Catch ya later!
-Brent

Man, I love these things. I'll update with actual news later sometime.

100 questions

01. Fallen for your best friend? nope
02. Made out with JUST a friend? no
03. Been rejected? yeah
04. Been in love? no
05. Been in lust? probably
06. Used someone? no
07. Been used? i dunno
08. Cheated on someone? no way
09. Been cheated on? don't think so
10. Been kissed? yes
11. Done something you regret? a lot
W h o w a s t h e l a s t p e r s o n . . .

12. You touched? Gohde (shaking hands)
13. You talked to? Mom
14. You hugged? i think Tasha
15. You instant messaged? Gohde
16. Kissed? i dunno
17. You yelled at? i dunno
18. You laughed with? Gohde
19. You had a crush on? gee...should i say?
20. broke your heart? a girl
D o Y o u ?

22. Color your hair? nope
24. Piercings? no way
25. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? nope
26. Floss daily? yea
27. Own a webcam? no
28. Ever get off the damn computer? yes
29. Sprechen sie deutsche? no
30. Habla espanol? si, muy bien
G e n e r a l Q u e s t i o n s

40. Considered a life of crime? nope
41. Considered being a hooker? hell no
42. Considered being a pimp? hmmm
43. Are you psycho? depends
44. Split personalities? no, yes, no
45. Schizophrenic? nope
46. Obsessive? naw
47. Obsessive compulsive? mmm no
48. Panic? maybe
49. Anxiety? no
50. Depressed? i get bummed from time to time
51. Suicidal? no way
52. Obsessed with Hate? nope
53. Dream of mutilated bodies? nope
54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? like what?
R a n d o m S t u f f . . .

55.If you could be anywhere, where would you be? wow, i actually have to think bout that.....practicing with the band in Gohde's basement
56. What would you be doing? rocking out with my guitar
58. What are you listening to? Everclear - Boys are Back in Town
59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? don't think so
60. Chicken or fish? chicken
61. Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be? turtle
C u r r e n t l y :

62. Current Clothes: white t-shirt, jeans
63. Current Mood: Thinking
64. Current Taste:i dunno
65. Current Hair: messed up
66. Current Annoyance: restraining myself from asking something
67. Current Smell: the air
68. Current thing I ought to be doing: shower & homework
69. Current Desktop Picture: some island paradise
70. Current Favorite Group: Without Eloquence.....heh heh heh
71. Current Book: Left Behind The Kids Book 4 (great books)
72. Current DVD In Player: Dawn of the Dead
73. Current Refreshment: None
74. Current Worry: Hmmmm....which one should I say?
F a v o r i t e s :

76. Food: Pizza
77. Drink: Mountain Dew
78. Color: Blue
79. Shoes: my Nikes
80. Candy: Reese's Pieces
81. Animal: turtle
82. Movie: Mallrats
83. Dance: Either Apache or Feed the Monkey
84. Vegetable: Corn
F u t u r e :

85. What do you want to be when you get older? Film Director
86: Married?: of course
87: Kids?: yeah
88: Living Where? anywhere
T h i s o r T h a t :

89: Gay or straight??: straight
90: Boxers or Briefs: boxers
91: Reading or Writing: writing
92: Basketball or Baseball: Basketball
93: Walking or Running?: either
95: Left or Right?: Right
96: TV Shows or Movies?: Movies
97: Britney or Christina?: they're both pretty slutty
98: Rap or Rock?: Rock
99: Day or Night?: Night
100. Do you think Kevin of Kevin and Mattfunkel is good looking? ummmm no

P.S. Yeah....nevermind....

Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"

September
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisureand traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

Hmmm...I don't really have anything to write down. I'm supposed to be doing some homework for English but I'm procrastinating (long word). I guess I'll just do a Lit Circle that needs to be done. So today didn't hold anything special. It was a typical A Day except I had sudstitute teachers in both English and Chemistry (Yes!). I had play practice from 6 to about 8:30. It wasn't too great. Now I'm here writing this. Oh! Over the weekend Gohde told me about this music fest being held down in Greenville, Illinois. It's called Agape Festival. All these great bands like Relient K, Hawk Nelson, and Further Seems Forever are gonna be there plus others. It's May 6-7 and it costs around $40. I am totally going to that! Hmmm...what else to write? I've just been trying to clear my mind of some things lately. Oh well...I guess I better get back to work. Later dayz, duders!

-the cluttered mind of Brent